Today, February 18th, 2013 marks the 2nd anniversary of my husband’s heart attack.
I’m blessed to be someone that knows that EVERY day of life is truly precious.
I’m not talking that fake belief that most of us walk around with for our entire life.
Two years ago I had the biggest wake up call of my life. And it caused me to get even more serious about my business.
For a few months after the “incident” as we’ll call it, I was really messed up.
I went through a period of fear and negativity. I couldn’t shake the ominous feelings and my business stood still until I was able to grab hold of the fact that we were all still here, still a family, and I needed to be ME again.
Those of you who know me know I am a very positive minded person.
You know I’m a glass is half full girl.
Well, for a while there I was freaked out. Freaked out by thoughts like:
— I could have been a widow before I was 40.
— How would my children have coped with losing their father.
— How would I have coped the loss of the man I adore and love.
And every time my husband so much as sneezed or hiccuped I would go into a full blown panic attack.
It got so bad one night while I was washing dishes and hubby bent down to pick something up and groaned, that I remember having to run to the bathroom before the kids saw me start to hyperventilate.
FEAR is debilitating. I UNDERSTAND THAT COMPLETELY.
I got through these fears by seeking the help of a dear friend who was also a counselor.
We shifted my FEAR and channeled it into more positive thoughts and I processed the “incident”.
Now, thus far, we’ve been give 2 EXTRA years together. Honestly, everyday I’m grateful we have EXTRA time together. It is truly a miracle he survived that night. I will also be forever grateful to the doctors and paramedics. And I do see it as EVERY day is an extra we are a blessed with.
I knew I was going to write today as the anniversary of the “incident” always brings me back to the passion I have for my business. And the “incident” sparked the full on run I went on within my business where no excuses were ever going to be allowed.
All day long I thought about what I wanted to write. Not specifically the topic but to feel if there was anything that needed to come out of me.
Well, tonight I participated on a call with my dear friend and mentor, Diane Hochman.
And after the almost 90 minutes on the call, what came through for me is that I will never allow FEAR to control me like it did them. I won’t allow others to control me or situations that occur in my life. I am the QUEEN of my destiny. I am the one who is strong and powerful and caring and loving all mixed in one.
I’m starting a new phase tonight that you’re going to hear about over the next few weeks and months.
This song and it’s lyrics bring it all home.
You can read the lyrics here
And here’s the song:
Please leave a comment or share. And I can’t wait to hear what you are up to and how you are being you!